I can literally feel myself healing every day.

Like the Kintsugi process of repairing broken potterymixing

the urushi glue,

Regrets...I've had a few…a few?

Really?...only a few?

I am a four on the Enneagram…

an INFJ on the Myers Briggs…

I wrote this story in November of 2007 and could never decide how to resolve the ending in a realistic way.  I never imagined I would be this mother. Now I live this pain and as I resolve my pain, I hope to finish the story.  How would you end it?

The Other Mary

As I was walking my dog this morning among the tall pines along the creek that flows near our house, I was startled by an elderly gentleman who was hidden below in the trees, picking up trash along the stream banks on his property.

"Hello," his deep voice resonated. I jumped slightly and turned to see him and his dog.

"Sorry, looks like I frightened you."

"Yes, you did. I didn't s...

"It could happen to anyone." That's the phrase a friend, not even a friend, someone I didn't know, but later became a friend, said to me when I met with him. He told me he'd been to my son's memorial service even though he didn't know me and that when it was over he went home and told his wife, "you know, that could happen to anyone." The comfort that statement brought me at the time and since has been immea...

Children who stray
Parents who fail
Incurable Illness
Chronic pain
Untimely death
Malicious crime
Deadly forces of nature
Friends who betray
Spouses who hurt

Sometimes life is hard...

Alternative Education

Would you like to spend the night alone in the woods in a tent in a cold foreign country? Would you consider this “education?” For a young man, just turned eighteen, this is his education - his “college,” if you will. His declared major is independence with a minor in adventure.

Kenny Rutz walked away from his childhood home in Norther...

2013 Recipient Rachel Young

2012 Recipient Emma Cook

Kenny's mom, Michelle, will be jog/walking a marathon in Sacramento the first Sunday in December to raise money for the Endless Joy Foundation and to raise awareness and reduce the stigma of mental illness.  We are asking people to donate $26.20 - One dollar for each mile she runs. 26.2 miles.  The slogan for her run is "Living with Mental Illness is harder than running a marathon with arthri...

Please join us in a celebration of my brother, Kenny's life. Reception to follow at the church. In lieu of flowers, donations may be made to the Kenny Rutz Endless Joy Memorial Foundation. It will be at Green Valley Community Church on Friday, January 20, 2012 from 3:30 P.M. to 6:30 P.M. Thank you.